“Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.” (Psalm 91:14-16)
As I feel God leading me into greater hunger and thirst for Him and His Word, I simultaneously notice an increase in lies and attacks of the devil. He knows exactly where my buttons are and does not hesitate in working a wedge into the chinks in my armor.
Insecurities about my calling, my marriage, my very value as a person come into question where there was no doubt before.
When Eve was in the garden with the serpent, she was not forced to rebel. She was not even told to rebel. No, Satan used something even more subtle. He said to the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?” (Genesis 3:1)
He made her doubt.
Did God really say that? Verifying and second-guessing are two separate things, but unfortunately for Eve it’s not too clear in the heat of the moment. Tonight again I felt overcome with emotion as I heard tiny half-doubts.
Did your husband really promise to care for you, or is he just as fickle as other men? Are you sure God is calling you to do this? Are you sure you’re not just mistaking your own desires for God’s will?
I may be temporarily disabled from a lapse of doubt, but fortunately, the One who is in me is greater than the one who is in the world. God has gifted me with a double-fisted faith that protects me in the onslaught of doubt. He has given me supernatural armor which cannot fail.
“Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. (Ephesians 6:14-17)
With confidence I can stand on solid ground and say, “I have faith in God’s promises. And even if I am wrong, I will still believe God’s truth” In the end, it really doesn’t matter the outcome of these earthly endeavors. All that matters is that I cling to my God and “run with perseverance the race marked out” (Hebrews 12:1).